Saturday, June 26, 2010

Goal Met...check!

Excited!!! I finally have my OWN Wii Fit Character....7 months ago and 110lbs+ it looked impossible....ONE HUGE GOAL off my weightloss checklist!!!! Sweet!

Thursday, June 24, 2010

An inspirational poem from an amazing poet

Look at me so that you see,

the confident, strong, and happier me,

I push myself to limits,

I never could conceive,

driving my body to the goals,

that my mind knows I can be,

Friends I have all around,

to keep me on my feet,

keeping my spirits high

while my numbers go so low,

never losing sight,

of my one ultimate goal...



words from "The Mind of Me" by JAM just for you

Thursday, June 17, 2010

Changes***

Sometimes you don’t see the changes you have made in life until someone unexpected points them out to you. Even these silliest changes are still changes. After a year and odd months of starting my new weight loss journey I am finally starting to recognize changes. I would like to share some of these changes. Some too many may seem trivial but to me they are feats worth sharing. For some, these changes may excite and motivate. =)


Change One: Clothes

When I started in January 2009 I was in a very tight 30/32 in most major plus-sized clothing stores. For those that might not be aware that is the biggest sized available at SOME of the plus-sized stores. My bra size was a 48 DDD, My ring size was a 9 and my shoe size was an 11 W.

Now in June 2010 I am in a comfortable 22/24. Which I can gladly say is not the largest size in the store. I am even wearing 2X clothing at Old Navy. My bra-sized dropped down to a 44 D. My ring size is now a 6 and my shoe size is a 10.

These changes have allowed for me to give a friend of mine 2 bags of clothes and shoes 2 months ago. As of last week, I bagged up an additional 2 bags that I will also donate.

Physical Capabilities:

Stairs Before: I was terrified of the stairs and I would do anything, including bribing to avoid them by any means possible. I was afraid of falling down them, making other people wait for me or being out of breathe.

Stairs After: I know make at least 3-4 flights of spiral stairs on a daily basis. I am not out of breath and I am not falling down them. =)

Chairs Before: Chairs and booths were my enemy! :X I hated the idea of going somewhere and not knowing the type of furniture, how supportive, if there were tables available, are the booths roomy? I would ask my friends to ask for a table before we would even walk in. I couldn’t fit in my chair at work and had to make an excuse so they can provide me with one without arms.

Chairs After: I do not think about the seats anymore. Well except airplane seats because it has been 7 years so I am not sure. I seat in booths at restaurants all the time. I can even do the movie theater sets without raising the arm. I have this huge chair in the living room. When I used to sit in it I was hanging out of it. My belling was bulging out of it. Now I sit in the chair with a pillow at my side and my legs crossed. =) Now I have the same desk chair as the other employees at my job.

Stares Before: They were ridiculous. People stared at me like I was some circus freak. It wasn’t even stares for the majority it was gawking. They were making comments. It was very uncomfortable and made me want to stay at home and hide underneath a rock.

Stares Now: I honestly don’t pay attention. I am not sure if it because my self-esteem has boosted, or that people don’t look at me like the 465lbs lady. I love that I feel confident when I go out and about.

Food Before: I would eat everything and anything I wanted or desired. I would do whatever it took to fulfill my cravings and food obsessions. I lived to eat. I had each day pre-planned and if I wanted something else I would get that as well. I would over indulge, make myself sick and regret eating the food I ate, but anticipate doing it all over again when I would awake.

Food After: I pre-plan my food but it is to save time and make sure they meet the health requirements I have set for myself. I know what I am eating, make better food choices and look forward to trying new and exciting healthy food options. When I have craving and desires for something specific I try to fine or create healthy alternatives.

Those are some of the triumphs I have completed thus far…..

Stay tuned for my next blog.



Thanks,

Erin

Thursday, June 3, 2010

Inspired from my boy Alfred Sanchez

I was reading one of Alfred's blog and it got me thinking about somethings....

For the longest time, I used that I did not want to lose weight because I seen what it did to other's bodies and I preferred to have my body full than with saggy skin. When I look back on this thought I had it makes me disgusted and ashamed. Why did I think it was okay to feel that way? Was it just me making an excuse for letting myself go?

For years I thought it was ok to have huge rolls surrounding my body and encasing my heart it fat. I said that if I lost weight then I would have to get the skin removal surgery and that leaves scars and scars are ugly so...I don't want to lose weight....how moronic?

So I wrote this on his blog and it is amazing how my mind and thought process has changed for the better. I want to live and enjoy life and the way I was living was not healthy, not enjoyable and pathetic!

Man, I am going and thinking the same things, especially about the skin...It's like no matter how hard we work to fix our blunder we will either have the excess skin or surgery scars to remind us everyday that we are flawed or that we are survivors....we have to make the conscience decision to think of it as the glass is half full....instead of empty. Maybe we can wait awhile after our weight loss and there might be a cheap and less scar procedure??? I like this comment...I might post this as a mini blog...lol

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

Here is my story! (Posted again so it's on front page)

Here is my story!


My name is Erin Velez, I am a 27 year old morbidly obese woman. As of today I weigh 345lbs. My highest recordable weight was 465lbs. I have lost 120lbs to date.

My weight loss attempts start as early as 10 years old. I remember being heavier than all my friends and family. I was in third grade and I had a spring musical concert. We were to dress up and I was so used to my over sized T-Shirts and sweats. My pride was shattered when I fit into my step mothers dress. After that my mother took me to my family doctor. He made several insults to me. He would tell me eat one plate not two and don't steal your sisters food. These were very hard words to hear at such a tender age. He then prescribed me Redux and if I can remember I was 12 years old. Taking that medicine made me sick and I gained weight with it. When I was 14 my grandmother surprised me with a trip to Camp Shane (Shame). I hated it there, it was pure torture. I lost an unhealthy 40 lbs. in three months. After coming home I was unable to keep up with their vigorous work-out I ended up gaining back all the weight as well as tons more. Entering 9th grade I was 300lbs. I maintained a weight between 300 and 330 lbs until I graduated. All possible by, not eating (which didn’t last long), cabbage soup diet, egg and meat diet, liquid diet, and weight watchers. During high school I got into a relationship. He too was obese, and we ate and ate. I got up to 360 within the next year. I got up to 465 lbs. Then, with the help of a friend I started the Atkins diet and lost 100 lbs. After a year on Atkins I went off and gained it all back. I needed your help! I was afraid to fall asleep some nights not knowing if my heart will make it to the morning.

I decided that I had to start losing weight all over again, but this time in a healthy way. I reduced my calories and began to workout. My doctor prescribed me Adipex to suppress the hunger. The pill plus my new food eating and exercising habits have helped me lose the new 120lbs. I am still significantly overweight and I have to fight this battle for the rest of my life.

There has been some many things that I wanted to so but was too afraid because of my weight. I have always hoped to be able to the the basic things that people do in their everyday life. I am in the process of creating a list of "MUST DO's" Some of my goals are going to and finishing school. Start my own business. Traveling the world, starting a family and being able to run a marathon!. I want to maintain a healthy relationship with food. Be happy and know that when I fall asleep I will awake in the morning. I do not blame anyone else for my weight. I know when I hit the fridge what I am doing to myself. Now Im taking a stand and putting my foot down and making a choice that will impact the rest of my life. I hope that my story can help you relate!